Just be Held


photo courtesy Pintrest.

I was scheduled to speak at a moms event at church, when I received a call from my child’s school counselor. As I stepped outside to take the call, she told me she was calling mom to mom; friend to friend. My child wasn’t in any danger nor was she in trouble, rather this was an informative call.

There was a storm brewing in our lives.

When I walked back into the event, “Just be Held” by Casting Crowns was playing. I DID NOT want to listen to this song. I sat in defiance with my arms and legs crossed, bouncing my leg up and down, up and down in anger and pain. I was upset with my friend, who was the ministry leader of the event, for choosing this song, but she was simply being obedient. I praise God now that she did choose this song, but for a very long time I couldn’t listen whenever this song was playing. 

With tears in my eyes, I was crying out to God, “Why are you allowing this?” The ‘this’ of that moment was nothing like the ‘this’ that was yet to come. The moment propelled our family into three years of a challenging struggle, that without our faith, could have destroyed us. It was a time of sifting, deliverance, and healing and the enemy took advantage, at every opportunity, to cause us to doubt Who God says he is.

I delivered my presentation and life went on. A few years later, I was cleaning up the files on my computer, and I came to my presentation. I was about to toss it in the garbage, when I very clearly heard the Holy Spirit speak to my heart, “Don’t do that.” I moved the cursor away from the garbage icon and dragged the document back to its original spot on my desktop.

This  morning as I sat and peacefully listened to “Just be Held,” I reflected back to the maelstrom of those years and the Holy Spirit showed me pictures of all the pieces He connected together. How He birthed His will in my life through those tumultuous years. How the presentation I almost threw away became my first ever published piece. 

Storms will rage around us but you have a choice. Just be held.

So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held. Casting Crowns.






This beautiful verse jumped off the page at me and I knew I must share it. It was spoken out of tension between Laban and Jacob, as Jacob was obedient to God, who told him to go back to the home of his father.

Although Jacob was deceitful to Laban in the way he left to return to his father’s home, and Laban most likely wanted to harm Jacob, he instead extended the gracious words of Genesis 31:49. Some theorize that these words were actually a denunciation to Jacob for the way he treated Laban in parting, but only God could reveal it as a beautiful benediction.

With the sincerest of heart, I bid you mizpah!




Full Metal Jacket

Several mornings ago I was in that wonderfully blissful state in between slightly asleep and fully awake. I was spending some quiet time with my heavenly Papa, with thoughts and prayers floating through my mind like puffy white clouds gently moving across a beautiful spring sky. That’s when I heard, very clearly in my mind, the words “full metal jacket” and I saw a picture of a protective vest. No longer in that wonderfully blissful state, I was now fully awake.

army-pack-1-6Coming from a military family and being married to a man who use to sleep with his rifles on the floor in between his bed and the wall, one would think I knew exactly what a full metal jacket is. One would be wrong, I had to Google the term. A full metal jacket is a type of bullet that has a soft core and is encased by a harder metal on all sides except the bottom, which is exposed lead.

I began pondering what the Holy Spirit meant by full metal jacket and this picture of a protective vest. If this were a year ago, fear would have set in and I would be stressing about what the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me. This particular morning, however, it wasn’t caution I felt but a call to arms.

This morning as I was praying I heard the word, “gear up!” No, I didn’t have to Google this, I knew immediately the Holy Spirit was telling me to put on His full armor and be ready to ride. Then the Holy Spirit spoke these words to my heart, “My word is your full metal jacket, it is your vest of protection.” Reading  glasses on bible text

Precious one, the Holy Spirit is telling us not to be afraid of current world events but to put on our full metal jacket. He is calling us to a season of intense abiding in Him through reading and studying his word, prayer, worship, praise and most importantly, living out his word through our life.

The Body of Christ is at war not in the physical realm, although that is the chosen battle field of the enemy, our war is waged in the supernatural, the spiritual realm of the heavenlies. The Holy spirit calls us to stand united in prayer, consistent prayer, over the atrocities we are witnessing. That anger you feel and the desire for righteous justice at current events, the Holy Spirit asks you to direct that at Him in prayer. Boldly ask Him to turn ALL hearts to him in repentance. Do you understand the power of prayer? Do you understand that God hears the prayers of his people and those prayers move the hand of God? Don’t ever underestimate the power of prayer. And, pray from a pure heart with God’s motives not your own.

For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7.

Back in the seventies there was a shampoo commercial that showed a young actress holding a bottle of shampoo and saying something to the effect of, “if you tell one person and they tell one person and so on and so on,” while the picture of her became a screen full the same small picture of her, conveying the image that it started with one person telling another and so on. It is the same here. I am telling you and if each of you tell just one other person, soon the entire Body of Christ will hear God’s call to gear up and put on your full metal jacket.

logo_crusader_shield_swordFor our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12.