Perhaps he began to feel this way because he had turned his back on his first true love. He had known this love since he was a young boy. This love had guided him and loved him with a love so rich and so deep, I imagine it was overwhelming at times. Perhaps it was because he allowed others to attempt to fill the hole in his heart. Expecting them to love him the way his true love did; using them as a substitute rather than exploring the depths of love his true love provided him.
One day he wrote these words, “For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.” King Solomon wrote these words in Ecclesiastes 1:18. Wisdom was the very thing King Solomon had asked God for. As I read this verse I wondered what had caused the king to feel such despair. Perhaps it is because he did one of the things God had told the nation of Israel not to do – intermarry with women from other nations. You may be asking yourself, “why would God care if Solomon married women from other nations?” The answer is simple, God knew that if his beloved nation intermarried with other nations, who worshipped pagan god’s, they would turn His children away from Him. And, that is what happened to Solomon.
King Solomon, however, loved many foreign women besides Pharaoh’s daughter—Moabites, Ammonites, Edomites, Sidonians and Hittites. They were from nations about which the Lord had told the Israelites, “You must not intermarry with them, because they will surely turn your hearts after their gods.” Nevertheless, Solomon held fast to them in love. 1 Kings 11:1-2.
Was this the reason Solomon felt like wisdom had become such a burden to him? Perhaps it is why Solomon also wrote these words in Ecclesiastes 2:26a-b, “To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God.” Did Solomon feel he had gone too far and couldn’t find his way back to God? Perhaps we will never know this side of heaven.
This caused me to think about the necessity in my own life about seeking God more and more intimately. About the importance of staying connected to him, so that the wisdom of God will not become of burden of conviction but a continuing expression of his love.
Precious One, if you believe in Christ as your Lord and Savior, nothing you have done or can do will ever separate you from the love of God! His love for you is so vast and so deep, that He has graciously provided confession and repentance as part of your relationship with Him. It is the restoration that maybe Solomon was looking for but gave up trying to find.
Precious One, if Christ isn’t your Lord and Savior, He wants to be. He loves you so much and longs for you to freely choose Him!
The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding. King Solomon – Proverbs 4:7.